I found homestuck!!! It seriously has brought light into my life, lol. Oh my goodness, dude!! DUDE i feel like myself again. The combination of this, college, my awesome roommate and the awesome friends I have met through her. . . life is just really good right now. I love the freedom of college, though it was hard at the beginning, as I have never had much freedom compared to what most people my age had. But now I am struggling; I wen in for an art and psycho-biology double major (I know, lol) because I was torn between my love for art and my love for science. I figured I would go to this particular school because I could take classes at Massart and still have awesome science classes. I never really thought about going to art school, just cuz I had the weird notion tat it wasn't really school, and I should be "smart" and pursue something academic. I have always battled with this; trying to be smart and shoving that notion down my own throat and letting it cloud my mind. In a way, I let the artist side of myself do that too, trying to think of things "out of the box" and making things for something or to appease someone, or to appease some image or ideal and not really doing it for myself. I started showing an interest in comic art and characters and such of that nature several years ago, and it would re-surface again and again, and I was always embarrassed about it, and I always shut it down. I even burnt a lot of pictures because I was embarrassed!!! Now I wish I could get them back!!! I have always been an artist and my parents have always been very supportive of it, but at the same time, I think they feel like comic art and cartoons, things of that nature, aren't real art and are a "waste of my talent", but for once, I have found something that has broken me out of a block I've been in for at least 4 years. . . I am finally creating art for myself and hopefully you can expect more
Hopefully I will be transferring to an art school of some sort, though I still don't know what for XD but anyway, I'm done ranting, that felt really good ^-^